Keep it to yourself

Thursday evening I finished my final project for the school year, submitted my work electronically, and then went outside to see what might be growing in the garden after my slapdash planting jobs a week and two ago. While I am not at all confident my grades for the last two months’ work will be to my liking, I can honestly say I am almost completely unconcerned. That’s how much I am ready for this school year to be over.

Yes, I took on more than I should have done, and yes, there were days during which I was wild-eyed, humming the song below through gritted teeth and at a maniacal pitch, and yes, if you ask me tomorrow I will tell you that I care very deeply about how well I understood and conveyed my understanding of the subject matter in my last two projects.

For today, however, and today only, I really don’t care. I have nearly finished the intensive part of my docent-training, I have completed my second year of diaconate studies, and my heavy tutoring program workload feels lighter by the week. Stick a fork in me, I’m done!

But enough about me, let’s talk about my garden. Very quietly as I do not wish to disturb the neighborhood varmints that are apparently asleep on the job this spring.

I have sprouts!

Oops. Shhhh. Let’s try to keep this just between us. Sotto voce in the manner of David Attenborough: corn, pole beans, black beans, tiger eye beans, dragon tongue beans, sugar snap peas, broccoli, pumpkins, zucchini, lettuces and arugula are all growing, so far almost completely unnoticed by the animals that have threatened their cousins’ existence in the past. Sure, there are a few missing nibbles here and there, but nowhere near the full-on destruction reminiscent of an untended fast food salad bar mercilessly tossed by the noonday lunch crowd that we have borne witness to in the past. No strawberry plant life stirrings yet, but I haven’t given up all hope there either.

I have a theory. This busy academic year? I had neither time nor inclination to keep the bird-feeders full, or to clean them or even keep them partially full. I never did put out the big one I have reserved for winter and the appeasement of greedy mourning doves. For years in the winter, we have fed nearly as many chipmunks and squirrels with the spilled seed as we intentionally fed the birds. This winter even the hawks gave up hope for easy-pickings and stopped hanging around our backyard. And so, I think most of the small herbivore rodents moved on to seedier pastures months ago. Either that or I put everything — all the seeds and seedlings — in so late this year they gave up on me. If they even keep track of such a thing. Not complaining either way.


About pattiblaine

Raised under the name of Snyder in the upstate NY town of Vestal, I've worked as a typesetter, a fast food salad bar tender, an art reviewer, a waitress, a part-time nanny, and a very-bad-with-phones temp. Once upon a time I was all-but-thesis toward a Masters in Art History. Now I'm just a mom with a lot of fiber squirreled away throughout the house. We call it insulation. In 2013 I completed a life-long learning program at Colgate Rochester Crozer Divinity School, and am a postulant toward the diaconate in the Episcopal Diocese of Rochester, NY. In addition to coordinating volunteers for the soup kitchen, I volunteer as a tutor at a deeply impoverished city elementary school, and am a docent at the Memorial Art Gallery.
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2 Responses to Keep it to yourself

  1. Sarah says:

    Love This Year by the Mountain Goats! I first heard it the year my dad passed away. It really helped. The garden is looking good!

    • pattiblaine says:

      Sarah, that song has been an extraordinary motivator for me since I first heard a snippet of it on either This American Life or Wait, Wait, Don’t Tell Me earlier this year. The Mountain Goats, like so many other greats, is one of those things that happened when I wasn’t paying attention to that bit of culture. Glad I found them, or they found me! And found you too. I can imagine how it helped you start to come to terms with your loss.

      Also, I prefer to say the garden is looking good — so far… I am terribly aware it is a fragile success. 🙂 Thanks!!

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